Life is an experience of change and loss. I've learned to call the changes "field shifts" and my experience is that these shifts are messages from the universe directing me on my life journey. These messages can be quiet and they can be loud. I may hear them or miss them. I am learning to be more aware of field shifts.
In the last 5 years or longer I have had the divine privilege of working with a personal coach who has empowered me to see my life experience from this perspective. And I do mean empower. It has been an awakening of an awareness that opens and reveals the highest possible results of each change.
Jeanette is my coach. She is my teacher, my mentor, my role model. She has been my tour guide into the possibilities of my life journey. Jeanette has recently retired and it was a sudden field shift for me. Throwing the switch on a change like that can be unsettling for most, but for me it is something that I've taken in stride from early childhood having grown up in the military moving from city to city, finding new homes and making new friends.
So, at first, I was happy for Jeanette and willing to accept this change easily. There would be a higher possibility revealed. Then, the change began to settle in and I am realizing the loss with sadness and regret.
Five years ago when I was introduced to Jeanette it was for an "assessment" for coaching programs and coursework. I knew very soon into our first meeting that I wanted to work with Jeanette and learn everything she had to offer. There were various offerings and opportunities but the others sounded mundane compared to the possibility offered in her work.
For these five years I have had the opportunity to share my life experience in the context of my created intentions with the support of her wisdom and guidance. We have navigated many changes in my life and I have realized forward movement into more and higher possibilities. She has been a support system that has held me and guided me with gentle loving kindness and strong powerful possibilities.
With Jeanette's guidance I have engaged in many intensive learning courses in leadership, communication, productivity; always generating expanding possibilities and forwarding my intentions. Every time lifting me higher and further along the path of my intentions and my life purpose and contributions.
My life has been a confluence of change these past months. My work is unfolding on many dimensions and many domains. In the midst of experiencing new work and developing connections for my future business, my mother died, I changed jobs, and now I'm losing Jeanette.
While I have so many experiences to delight in and be proud of I do have some regrets around this work. Jeanette offered 24/7 coaching. She was available to me by phone and email every waking moment should I need her. I rarely took the opportunity to rely on this aspect of our work. Was it because I wasn't going deep enough in my progress? Was it because I wasn't truly committed to my own work? Did I miss an opportunity?
Without Jeanette in my life there will be a void. I am taking time now to experience the loss with sadness and with awareness that there is a new possibility opening.
What next, what now?
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